Hip Hip Hooray
My yoga teacher, Jane, harps and harps on gratitude. Got something good going on? Show gratitude! Got something bad going on? Show gratitude! And she’s always trying to open our hips because “open hips = happy heart.” And a happy heart is a grateful one.
One day, after a very stretchy sequence to eke open our hips more! more! more!, Jane closed our practice with this quote during savasana:
Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns
- denial into acceptance
- chaos into order
- confusion into clarity
- problems into gifts
- failures into success
- the unexpected into perfect timing
- and mistakes into important events
Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow.
— Melody Beattie
I practically wept on the mat.
The Dance of Duality
My journey thus far flashed before my eyes. My empty arms and longing heart gave way to my fantastically full home — basketballs, extra laundry, teddy bears and the two children who leave those things all over. My very dark days where I nearly lost the will to live were juxtaposed with the brilliant light I found in the infertility blogging community. My sickly, failure of a body has evolved into something I love, both in the way it looks and all it can do. Even the recent chaos presented to me is balanced by the calm stillness I find when I draw in my attention solely to the space on my mat.
In my mind’s eye were a thousand tao symbols, each one symbolizing duality dancing into unity.
- Day + night = a day.
- Good + evil = a human.
- Broken + forgiveness = wholeness.
- Infertile + superfertile = open adoption.
- Self-loathing + self love = me.
It was bliss. And I was grateful, for every single thread in the tapestry that is my life.
Lori Holden, mom of a teen son and a young adult daughter, writes from Denver. Her book, The Open-Hearted Way to Open Adoption: Helping Your Child Grow Up Whole, is available through your favorite online bookseller and makes a thoughtful anytime gift for the adoptive families in your life. Catch episodes of Adoption: The Long View wherever you get your podcasts.
Lori was honored as an Angel in Adoption® in 2018 by the Congressional Coalition on Adoption Institute.