Ten years ago, I began a series of one-year courses with my teacher, Ethel, called Multidimensional Energy Work. I’ve mentioned this before, as well as the profound impact that this work/play has had on my spiritual evolving.
One of Ethel’s teachers has been Mother Meera, a woman from India who lives in Germany and holds darshan there and when she travels the world. Her followers believe that Mother Meera is an avatar, an actualized being, the Divine in human form. I once read a book about her and scoffed when I discovered that she’d had nose surgery (not cosmetic) to correct a painful and annoying condition. What kind of god(dess) has body parts that don’t work? I mean, really, why not just fix it? Why the need to involve a surgeon?
I never really found an answer to the question about how an all-powerful and all-knowing being can have issues until years later when I was taking Ethel’s multidimensional energy class at the same time I was teaching 7th grade geography. I was teaching a unit on what happens when you smush a globe or the actual three-dimensional entity — the Earth — into a two-dimensional map. The teacher-guide of the textbook suggested having the students take a whole-as-possible orange peel and try to flatten it down so that no parts raised or buckled.
Turns out that when you turn something three-dimensional into something two-dimensional, there is distortion.
I applied this new analogy to Mother Meera. SHE is a multi-dimensional being (as am I, as are you). SHE is living as a three-dimensional being (as am I, as are you). THIS is how illness, misfortune, difficulties, horrible circumstances can happen to divine beings. On some level, we may actually be creating these experiences — for the sheer juiciness of being human and experiencing fallibility and the full spectrum of emotions.
I am going through a distortion of high magnitude now. I’m not sure what, if any, I will unfurl here publicly. But all this is to say that living and mindfully as I try to do, taking good care of myself and my family as I try to do, breathing and being present and all the things that I know I should do and yet don’t often enough put into practice — all these deposits in the karma bank did not protect me from a really tough thing. Nor did I expect them to.
This weekend I took the kids on a theatre-hike. As we settled at the first clearing where Hansel and Gretel unfolded in front of us, we laid down the blanket that the theater company had loaned us.
Another mom and her two young children asked if they could share our blanket. I said yes but Tessa’s body language said “No!” as it occupied as much of the blanket as she could cover. The lady drifted away, not wanting to further engage with us.
We walked to the play’s next clearing and I said to Tessa something we’ve talked about before: “The Universe has a way of showing you yourself. So watch in the next week or so for someone to not share with you when clearly they could if they wanted to. This is so that you get the chance to see what it’s like to be on the other side of your actions.”
Soon we were at the next stage of the play, another clearing on a beautiful hike. Tessa laid down our blanket and, without any encouragement from me, sought out that lady and invited her and her children to sit with us. Which they did.
I smiled at her and she smiled back.
I attended my very first yoga conference this week, a day at the Hanuman Festival. One instructor took us into a deep meditation where we were, in theory, accessing our intuition and experiencing the all-encompassing love of the divine, the unity of all.
I, deeply wounded from the events of the week and the absolute stuck-ness that had a stranglehold on my life, had difficulty getting my thoughts out of the way to fully experience the session.
After the meditation, the leader told us about the five yogic sutras. I needed only the first two she mentioned (there is no order to them).
- Recognize the other person is you.
- There is a way through every block.
If we see qualities that we dislike in another – again, we are only seeing ourselves – perhaps a disowned part called the shadow. The more we are identified with our ego, the more judgmental we will be toward others and the more we will project our own personality traits onto others…
…Every challenge, no matter how great or small, has a solution or a way through. This solution, however, doesn’t come from the rational or logical mind. A pros and cons list will not work. The solution will come bubbling to the surface through your intuition. How do you know the difference between intuition and thoughts from the mind? Intuition is neutral in energy – there is no judgment, no ‘shoulds’ and no fear. Intuition is the creative energy.
Not that I’m an avatar, not that I’m actualized, not that I’m anyone’s savior.
But within me is the seed of the divine. The boundless, multi-dimensional divine, which is playing around on a three-dimensional stage and experiencing distortion in doing so. I am perceiving myself in others and reflecting others to themselves on this stage.
We are learning to love, really love, our blemishes.
So simple. Not so easy.