I discovered a 1 star review of Adoption: The Long View on a popular podcast platform. It was left the same day as Dominic’s funeral (a date which has nothing to do with this and yet everything to do with everything).
I don’t know what it is, but this podcast does not click for me. As someone hoping to become a parent through adoption, I find the tone of this podcast to be…honestly, depressing and discouraging. Somehow the podcasts make me feel like I’m a bad person for wanting to adopt. Adoptive parents are selfish, they cause trauma. I am eager to grow my family through adoption, and I’m eager to learn how to do it the right way, but it’s hard being made to feel like a villain for everything I’m going through to try to give a loving home to a child who needs one.
My First Concerns
Getting a 1 star review was, at first, a bit of a gut punch. My go-to reaction is to start with an internal examination of my own fears, triggers, and motivations.
My work is me! Somebody thinks I’m a 1 star person!
OK, a next-breath look shows this to be untrue for obvious reasons. I am not my work, and one review is not definitive. This review is not a pronouncement on me as a person. And even if it were, no one besides me is my judge and jury.
What if this rating means fewer adoptive parents will find Adoption: The Long View?
I really want to do a decent job covering the complexity of adoption because the stakes are so high. Reviews signal platform algorithms to either promote a podcast (5 stars) or keep it in obscurity (1 star, or worse — listeners not leaving ratings at all).
Is there truth in what the reviewer says?
DO I see adoptive parents as selfish, as villains? Do I subconsciously consider those who want to adopt bad people? I don’t think I do. I haven’t done a search for those words in all 27 transcripts, but if “selfish” and “villain” are there, I bet it’s in a different context than what the reviewer interpreted.
Am I following my own advice?
Do I feel approachable, nonjudgmental, and safe to those who want to know more about the long view of adoptive parenting?
A recurring theme on the podcast is for parents to work on their own stuff so they feel approachable, nonjudgmental, and safe to their child. I have not always done this well as a parent or as an educator in this space, perhaps because I am still learning how to be more gentle with myself. The reviewer has a valid point in this regard. I’m not yet sure how to make the tone more inviting while delivering truths adoptees and others have shared, but I have set an intention to keep working on it and figure it out.
My Response to the 1 Star Reviewer
Now that I’ve looked within, here is what I would say to the reviewer if I had the chance.
What You Expressed is Not Unusual
You are not alone in thinking this podcast is discouraging. I’ve already heard from several other experienced adoptive parents that they recognize themselves in your words from early in their adoption journey — as do I! The win/win/win narrative we start with feels so good and noble.
We come to adoption with simple thinking: we will love a child and give them a good life, love is all you need, everything will be happy-ever-after after when a judge pronounces us a family.
We are very clear what adoption is for adoptive parents.
What we don’t know at the start is what adoption is to others, to the voices of the lesser-heard. When first listening to adoptees and birth/first parents, it can be painful to deconstruct the win-win-win narrative and realize that there is wounding and trauma in adoption. Being able to embrace the “good” and the “bad” takes time and doesn’t come easily. There is a lot of unlearning that needs to happen in order to make way for new information.
At the early stages, we don’t know what we don’t know. That’s why I encourage you to sit in the discomfort you’re feeling and to continue to expand your perspective and learn from others, especially adult adoptees. This will serve your future child. As an adoptive parent said in Ep 202, “do the best you can until you know better. When you know better, do better” (quoting Maya Angelou).
Are you up to exploring your language and the beliefs that may lie behind the words you used? You stated these experiences when listening to Adoption: The Long View.
- it makes you feel like a bad person
- adoptive parents are selfish, they cause trauma
- you’re made to feel like a villain
- you want to “do it the right way.”
There are some “good” and “bad” polarities here. I’m guessing this may have to do with messages you received in your own childhood and adulthood. I get that and don’t judge you. But I do suggest that your future adoptee will need you to take a look at how this Either/Or thinking affects adoptees (any child, for that matter). Either/Or is simplistic; BothAnd enables you to enter into the complexity that is adoption, that is parenting.
If you were to “do your own work, people!” (Ep 108) with an attachment or adoption-competent therapist, you may discover why you heard these things that were neither stated nor implied.
This is the work I have been doing, and it’s so hard but so worth it. I wish I’d started sooner; it would have been a gift to my children as well as to me. Doing this work is helping me better understand my own attachment style and recognize my own sore spots so I am less likely to cause others to suffer from my wounds.
“If you’re unwilling to dig through the truths, losses, and complexities, it’s your child who will be left holding the shovel.”~~ Suzie Williams, Executive Director ~~
Open Adoption & Family Services
I See Your Courage
You didn’t have to explain your rating, but you did. You thought about it and figured out what bothered you. Then you put your thoughts into words. Examining and articulating your thoughts took time and courage and a willingness to look within. This is an important step in shifting from the simple narrative you inherited from society to crafting your own on what adoption may mean for you and your future child.
Doing that work will take you from simplicity into complexity. It is not easy. It’s a hero’s journey, to begin thinking about your thinking, to question what you have not yet questioned. To be open to hearing others’ truths and listen with curiosity and a desire to understand.
If you pursue adoption, I implore you to keep tuning in. You have already taken several hard steps by listening to some episodes and by examining and expressing your thoughts. Keep going. Listen to adoptees and first parents. Keep a journal of what triggers you. See what needs to be attended to within you to make you feel whole.
This is the work. This is one of the best gifts adoptive parents can give to their adoptees, to not expect the adoptee to make them whole… because the parent has taken responsibility for that themselves.
Keep listening. For you — and for the three people who may one day turn you into a parent.
Lori Holden, mom of a young adult daughter and a young adult son, writes from Denver. She was honored as an Angel in Adoption® by the Congressional Coalition on Adoption Institute.
Her first book, The Open-Hearted Way to Open Adoption: Helping Your Child Grow Up Whole, makes a thoughtful anytime gift for the adoptive families in your life. Her second book, Standing Room Only: How to Be THAT Yoga Teacher is now available in paperback, and her third book, Adoption Unfiltered, is now available through your favorite bookseller!
Find Lori’s books on her Amazon Author page and catch episodes of Adoption: The Long View wherever you get your podcasts.